Last night, while I was on the phone with Ryan, Dad was yelling at me to get off the phone. Ryan said, "He's being such a bitch." Then he said he'd talk to me tomorrow, and he said goodbye without saying "I love you." I said it, but he hung up. It was a weird feeling because he usually always says it...
He's also been cussing a lot more lately, which, even though I never tell him so, it bothers me quite a bit. I mean, I wouldn't mind if he let a word slip here or there, but he says them everytime we talk. I think it's because he's hanging out with people that talk like that constantly, but he used to rarely say them. It makes me sad that he does because I miss my Ryan...
Sometimes I miss how things used to be. I miss how we would talk on the phone all night long. I miss how we'd be on the internet all night long on the nights we weren't on the phone, talking. I just miss it... Maybe it's because I'm gone. Maybe when I get back in two weeks, everything will be somewhat normal again. I sure hope so. I just miss him.
He still always makes me laugh.